it suddenly struck me that i'll be leaving RJ forever. and honestly im not sad, not a single bit. sure it was a good school but yet there's something missing. maybe it's cos a time span of 2 years just ain't enough. i have zero CCA involvement and participation in school activities, well except for events which i participate only to earn the CIP hours. i've made new friends in school, kept some, lost some which is sad really. initially i was kinda distraught, but afterall you just try not to care. the girls in my class are great, really nice people and extremely diverse. but the kaleidescope of people in my class resulted in us being notorious, "attention span of 15 mins" hahaha. and im pretty much guilty too.
well i wasn't a "pure bred rafflesian" (what an elitist statement) and maybe that's why i don't feel the immense sorrow that most people are feeling. being in a raffles school ain't a big thing really. and in comparison, i prefer IJ a whole lot more. a gazillion times more. i didnt even bother going for the farewell assembly when i found out from mich it wasnt compulsory.
oh well.. but i'm glad i came to this school. a whole new different environment where you're on your own, and noone can help you if you dont even help yourself.
im fucking scared for A levels. and presently im not even thinking about the enjoyment after As. i wish i was a closet mugger. the lack of confidence is really killing me. and even though i stay home to study everyday, it's so damn unproductive. i've never felt this unprepared for a major exam.
which reminds me i have to study now gooodbye.